Some days I hate my job

Today was NOT a good day. Can you say stress? I spent my morning catching up/checking in with various patients of mine all over the hospital. This was done in between rounds and I never got back to my office to sort out necessary paperwork that I need for a meeting tomorrow until 11:30 or so.

I got involved with a case whereby a patient of mine got admitted to ICU unexpectedly and is not expected to make it. I know her friends personally and ended up phoning them at about 4pm to tell them to come to the hospital tonight to say goodbye if they wanted the chance to do this. She is not likely to wake up and not expected to survive very long.

I distracted myself by finally cleaning my messy desk. I had soo much stuff on it, I could remember what color it was!! Papers and books and a huge binder full of the information that I need for tomorrow's meeting for which there are no minutes despite my hunting for them, and I have had numerous people drop out of the meeting after they had RSVped that they would come. I am very thrilled to have gotten the speaker from my church. He is an Internationally known speaker on the topic of dealing with Stress, hence we are getting him as a favor to me. He is intrigued by the group and the work we do so he wanted to do this, despite the fact that we SOO cannot afford him.

The ICU thing was hard. Meeting the family for the first time in these circumstances. I do not like to do this. And the situation sucks. It is interesting though because her friend/family member was saying that they are sad to see this happen, and they have been in this place before because my patient has been in dire straits before. And they rejoice because she will go home to heaven. They will celebrate this woman's life while mourning their loss. It is hard to know what to say/do. It is hard to watch. Some days I hate my job.

Ever have a "blond" moment?

Okay. So I was late for this service I was doing and so I picked up the phone and called a cab company. Then I was put on hold, so I called a different one with my cell phone and when one picked up I hung up the other. Found my shoes, ran out the door and got to the service in time for rehearsal with choir. I reached into my pocket ... and what did I find?

My home phone!!! as well as my cell phone.

I had hung up the home phone, put it in my pocket and left with it!! This is by far the most bizarre thing I have done of the scatterbrain nature!! Enjoy the laugh. I shared with most of my friends present.

New Hat!!

I bought a new hat today. My mother and I were shopping for her dress for my wedding. She did not get one, but I found a new "Spring" hat!! I love it! and can't wait to wear it.

I love hats. Ever since Lady Di wore them, but of course.. the Queen of hats was Audrey Hepburn. Wearing hats is not so in vogue as it used to be. People don't really wear clothes with the flare of the last century. I lament this.

The Horrible MOH mistake aka Wedding Blunder ala moi

So yesterday I was on MSN with my sister for a few minutes before work. Just wanted to tell her that our mother got here safe from the other end of the country and I walked into my wedding nightmare!! I won't bore you with the conversation details, but basically it

Her: your friend has been sending me emails
Me: you don't like it?
Her: no no they're a bit interesting
me: meaning?
Her: well they make it sound as if you are telling her one thing and me another thing, but I don't think that's the case and she keeps asking my permission for stuff--what exactly did you tell her about me?
Me: no that's how she is... what kind of stuff is she asking permission about? wedding stuff or buying stuff?
Her: just about which wedding stuff she can look after ... she mentioned once that she is maid of honor I think
Me: yes she is
Her: well you had told me that I am so you are telling us different things ... I don't care
but you shouldn't tell two ppl the same thing .... you will start telling me the truth and her the truth
Me: uh.. I'm sorry butI don't think I ever told you that you were the matron of honor .. it has always been jenn Her: no you told me
Me: I had asked if you wanted to be in the wedding...
Her: and I said I didn't have to be moh and I didn't but you never told me otherwise
Me: well I'm sorry for that... I thought you understood
Her: no I am only going by your words how can I understand what you don't say


Then I reviewed my emails history and I realized that when she said she didn't have to be a "maid" I assumed she meant "bridesmaid" and she meant "maid of Honor". So.. now I have 2 MOHs. And you can't unask someone.. So while looking for MOB dresses with my mother, I asked the saleswoman if she had heard anything this wacky of all the weddings she's been invovled with. She said no.. that this was a first, but suggested that I keep them as both MOH but one (sister) signs the registry as witness (Sister -because she is family) and the other (Jenn) will do the toast. Now I have to explain this to them. Ugh.